Wednesday, October 21, 2009 ♥ trying not to think.
人生有时候要奋力一搏 不管未来会怎样
- 哪里怕
yup, this song. "where's the fear", if you directly translate, but it also means "where got scared", in singlish. hahas. this song accompanied me through today. it was singing in my head as i woke up, washed up, and replied to messages. it was still stuck in my head as i walked to school, got ready for assembly and went up to class.
joshua kor! i nvr break my promise, i didn't cry. i held back. i promised you, and myself that i wouldn't cry even if i failed everything we got back today. and i kept to it. i'm a brave girl. it took me alot of courage to face the marks that flashed before me.
disappointment came and went. especially during english. maybe i haven't worked hard enough. i only have myself to blame. but deep inside, i know i've put in my best efforts. at least i have nothing on my conscience. i guess i'm just too accustomed to failing alr. the feelings that came were nothing like those when i faced failing subjects. i was much more calm today. perhaps my soul has alr gotten used to my failing results, and has decided that it will not bother about them anymore.
mummy nvr scold. but i rather she had lashed at me than to keep quiet. emil did real well this time. and she kept harping on it. i don't want to listen. but what choice do i have? aliciakwok, you ain't going to cry now.
on a brighter note, LOLLIPOP is on for wahsbbt tonight. so which means tmr can watch!!!! hoho, okay, late alr, i go watch show again. -irony- heeeeeee. :D
some stuff to type, but not time. watch out for it tmr. ;p
a little too crazy over LOLLIPOP today. wahahahahahas.
was looking though owodog's 87 albums on his blog, alot photos leh! hahahahas. got some of fabien's very cute. hehehehe.
granddad and uncle came for dinner. jovan cute uh. :D "jiejie can sing caocao anot?" *smile* hahahahas. keai lah him. pri 2 only jiu sing so well le. hahas.
oh well, its kinda late alr. eh! 11.11pm. so cool! :D hahahas. i think i'm off to randomly pick a few more albums to browse through, then go sleep. owodog really like to take photos. :D
hahahahha. abit hyper now. but as the weather isnt very cooling, also abit sian. grrrr. spent about 1 hour trying to get some freaking card scanned into the computer. and guess why i couldnt? because somebody freaking UNPLUGGED the usb connecting to the printer. and nvr tell me. good lorh!
still, nothing much happened to my day. spent it watch loads of 黑角, LOLLIPOP and SHOWLUO dance clips. and not forgetting weiyu and xiaolu! :D breaking, popping, locking all watched le. hahahahahahas. xD
hao ba, i go watch "jiu tian xing fang" le. LOLLIPOP is on. :DD
mad in love with lollipop now. hoho. and fabien is just so handsome. x3
needed to teach bryan science later. no hope alr la him. three states of matter? - ice, water and vapour. *bangs wall*
but anyway, nothing much about today yet. my phone is outside in the living room and charging. hahahahha. dinner have to be self-settled later on since mum and dad wont be home early. okay, and bryan has tuition. seems like everyone has got something to do except me. emil is out bball-ing.
watching drama again. 4 consecutive day alr. nono, 5th. hahahaha. i think i shall stop blogging since there isnt much to say. posting again tonight. and hopefully by then, will have something for me to post about! xD
wahahahahahhas. abit hyper now. xD judging from what fabien kor had said, i really need some calming medicine. ohya, jerryl mentioned about those pills too. xD
few hours ago, i was tidying up the hamster's cage. and now, its in a big mess again. nvrmind, perhaps he likes it this way. a big hooha over his name before me and bryan truced on weiwei. hahahas. emil was giving that "whats-th-big-deal" look. LOL! but weiwei's cute. :D
went ssc again. =.= with grandmother. because mummy say going out, then okay lor. who knew she had wanted to go ssc again! haha. daiso, i can almst memorise where everything is placed alr. hahahahahahahas.
was msging fabien kor throughout today. and its partially his fault that i'm so hyper now. :D you promised ah, cannot fan hui le. xD hahahaha, i know you wont de. ;p debating with him whether popping or breaking is nicer. xD okok, locking nicest, happy? xD i know choonkeat kor learning popping recently. :D hahahahhas. and he says its because i keep asking him to watch weiyu and huya. okay lor! but its a good thing okay. another talent for you to nurture! :D
rongjia sing not bad leh! almst on par with xiaolu le! xD okok, off to watch vids. :D
you may not mean what you said, but i wont break my promise.
sometimes, its hard to get by without you. sometimes, i feel dejected all of a sudden. sometimes, i dont know what i'm doing.
its kind of like somebody who cant explain his goals in life. i dont know what i'm doing anymore. i just want to get past everyday quietly and not think anymore.
sometimes, i want time to stop. *furisi wulabaha!* sometimes, i cant wait for it to fastforward. sometimes, i cant really focus. *focus wulabaha!*
sometimes, i need concern. and yet, i need my own space too. i dont know how to handle this game of life anymore. the king's game, played ytd, was a much easier one. at least i could expect what will happen. sometimes, i wish i could just go away.
mummy shouting again. =.= like i was at fault. he didnt study, not me. aiya, ignoring.
showluo nvr win worhhh. *sad* twice le. shortlisted, then nvr win. but nvrmind ba, alr a sort of recognition le! :D
i feel a pimple coming. D:
but anyway, went ssc today. can say was forced to go de, but i didnt mind because there wasnt anything to do at home also. desmond koh was hosting some promotional event there and i swear he was totally shouting into th mic like the people were all deaf. xD joshua kor laughed like duno what when i called him. hahahahs.
woke up late, so sleeping late again today. xD you see how the cycle goes? sleep late, wake up late, sleep late, wake up late... like day, night, day, night. xD
everytime i placed hope in you, you'll let me down. and so it goes for ytd. you didnt keep your promise, so dont expect too much from mine. i guess this is the end alr.
fabien cuteeeee la! :D "我没 mic 有呐哟." hehehe. ♥ 杨奇煜
夏日的青春因为有你而不寂寞 沙滩上手牵着手一起走过 我们的夏日恋爱~
-夏日恋爱
sms count for today was very little as compared to ytd and the day before. how come? i also dont know. :x nvrmind, the reason used to comfort myself was: maybe everybody busy ba.
i dont expect much alr. fine, if because of her, you want to break off our friendship, then fine. whatever. i dont care alr.
loads of rantings today, just skip if you dont want to read ba. sigh.
weiyu~!!!!!!! :D hahas. i think i'm mad. you realised throughout this post, 情绪上的起伏很大? hahaha. ♥ 吴俊谚
wanting to change blogskin, but no nice ones, or i should say, none that i really liked. ): hoping that a change of blogskin can change my views, but i guess its fate that i cant fins any i liked. so nvrmind, sticking with this until choonkeat kor is done with his eoys. because he says he'll design one for me. :D
i'm hyper ultra crazy over weiyu now. :D popping is a really nice dance.
annoyed today. why do i have to take care of those two annoying creeps when i can have my own time? its freaking after the exams! i need my own time also right?!?!?! damnit.
lunched with PIC. then rushed like duno what to fetch bryankwok. and yes, i'm annoyed. totally. asshole.
then home-d. re-watched brown sugar chivalries. :DD fabien ultraaaaaa shuaiiiiii~ :D hehehehehe. and i have succeeded in influencing PIC to watch brown sugar macchiato. hehehe, but she wouldnt watch brown sugar chivalries just because owodog only has a few scenes in it. biased horrrrrrrr? nvrmind, i also biased de. xD
a few new dramas coming up. :DD looking forward to this: (though his 造型 is rly bwg.)
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hohoho. airing in taiwan on 1 nov. hehehehehehehehehes. but since the story is about him transforming into a 帅哥 when he thought rainie had ditched him, he should be back to normal towards th middle of the drama. *sincerely hopes* hehehe. nonetheless, still will watch. :D lovellang! dont criticise hor! i know you very bad de. :p
hahahahahas. recently, there is an increase in th number of pictures in my blog. :D hehe.
我是传奇~ been spamming lollipop vids since just now. xD so nice to be able to not worry about tmr's papers, because there isnt anymore~!!!!! weeee~ but somehow, it doesnt feel very real.
okay, ylbfb time! heeeeeeee.
just downloaded loads of vids, hope it'll work on my phone. ;p
冒险世界 :D hahas, was watching 宅男墅 videos just now. that explains the lyrics. xD
not much today loh. a.math die alr. e.math was so so. final paper tmr, kinda looking fwd. xD ohoh, lunched with michelle~ hahahahs. www outing planning-in-progress! heeeeeee~
okay, off to watch ylbfb, and then loads of mugging waiting for me.
1) If this survey gets a little personal, can you handle it? - why not, dont answer can alr mah. xD
2) If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be? - lee. hahas.
3) Were you happy when you woke up today? - no. i dreaded th math papers today.
4) When were you on the phone last? And with who? - just now, with fabien kor.
5) What is the last thing someone bought you? - someone bought me. chocs from choonkeat kor. :D
6)What’s something that can always make you feel better? - :D dont tell you. hahahahas.
7) What are you excited for? - tmr's bio paper, NOT.
8) What were you doing yesterday? - mugged real hard for math papers today, but still, a.math was a disaster.
9) Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you? - joshua kor.
10) What's the last thing you put in your mouth? - papaya. xD
11. Have a best friend? - loads.
12) Are you scared to fall in love? - no. ;p
13) Do you think teenagers can be in love? - why not?
14) Last person you wanted to punch in the face? - hmm, can i keep this a secret?
15) What time is it right this second? - 4.05pm
16) What do you want right now? - sleep.
17) Who was the last person you took a picture with? - last person. hmm. i forgot.
18) Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused? - hoho, single. xD
19) When was the last time you cried? - ytd night.
20) Do you have a good relationship with your parents? - sometimes.
21) Do you find it hard to trust others? - depends.
22) How fast does your mind change? - depends? hahas.
23) I bet you miss somebody right now. - bet what? xD
24) Can you honestly say you're okay right now? - no.
25) Why do you think so many people cheat? - to get what they want?
26) Tell me what's on your mind. - why should i?
27) What are you looking forward to in the next three months? - holidays.
28) Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing? - ya, why?
29) When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend? - number one top friend? no such thing, all of them are impt. :D
30) When is your next road trip? - not sure.
31) Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to? Who? - yes. the person whose surname is lee and has alr been mentioned in qn 2. haha.
32) How's your heart? - keeping me alive.
33) Have you ever felt like you weren't important? - yeah.
34) Do you think somebody's in love with you? - no.
35) What are you planning on doing after this? - study for bio tmr.
36) When will your next kiss take place? - you ask me, who i ask? the wall?
37) Have you told anybody you loved them today? - yes. why?
38) Who do you not get along with? - sometimes emil and bryan, if they get on my nerves.
39) What does your 2nd recent outgoing text say? - aiyo.
40) What are you wearing right now? - casual wear.
41) Are you wasting your time on the person you like? - nobody i like now.
42) When's the last time you had a grilled cheese? - lol, just.
43) What's your favorite boy and girl name right now? - never thought of that. haha.
44. How did you feel when you woke up? - rotten.
45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now? - currently in th process of text-ing fabien kor, who replies at an alarmingly fast rate.
46. Do you crack your knuckles? - no, they spoil th natural look of a finger, and mine are alr short enough.
47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight? - chionging a.math.
48. What are your LEGAL initials? - lol, why caps legal? akxs. why?
49. Who's the first B in your contacts ? - benjamin. ohya, long time nvr chat with him le. :x
50. Finally, say something to someone. - orh. fabien kor, please stop spamming. xD
btw, wahsbbt is out. and its totally no link. but 鲔鱼 is still cute with his short hair. :DD hehehhehehes. okay, i think i'll go watch, then post again, then study. hah. 10 more minutes to finish th eps. xD
i think i'm losing my mind. its all eoy's fault. this is argubly the worst eoy in my life. ): am hearing angela on the tv her new songs quite nice you know. hahhahas. after eoy, shall do loads of downloading. hehehehehehehehehs!
okay, junyang kor's nagging at me to go study alr. and he's mms-ing me loads of pictures. so rich ah you. xD
somebody should go updatehis very dead blog. right, joshua kor? ;p
I love all my gans and
I love LUO ZHI XIANG,LOLLIPOP and CHOC 7
I'm super in love with 鮪魚 吴俊諺. :D
My recent favourite korean band is SS501, and Kim Hyun-Joong is just so cute.
I'm fun-loving and idiotic; not a trace
I'm addicted to music till eternity,
and
I love all my belovedd friends + gans till forever
That's curz
I'm ALICIA KWOK and i admit i'm crazy.
prolouge
alicia kwok there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again. I'm imperfect and thts just th way i want to be.
because thts th way i've lived for 15 years and its continuing.
23 January is when everyone wishes me happy birthday.
and i want presents! (:
I miss 2E1'08 alot alot, i miss all the noise and fun,
all the laughters that we shared together.
I really wish for time to go back to the past,
so that everything can still be the way it was.
I miss sitting next to melvin erzi, and listening to all his crap and jokes.
I miss arguing with joyce over every little thing.
I miss asking crappy questions and getting crappy answers from jiancong ahgong.
I miss chatting with michelle during intervals between classes.
I miss talking to alan didi during science lesson.
I miss mrs koh, her naggings and all tht.
I miss having only 12 girls in the class
I miss 2E1'08!
Th only people who can judge my life are my friends/cousins and myself.
Spammers are not welcomed. mind you, NOT welcomed.
This is my blog so Click here if you dislike it.
I love all of you who loves me.
Loves! (:
random info :D
#1 if you hate me, rest assured, i hate you too.
#2 adss 2E1'08 is lovedd!
#3 aliciakwok doesnt like ppl who dont make themselves clear
#4 i'm a very cold person, but once i knw you well enough, i can be super crazy. check with joyce and/or michelle if you dont believe ^^
#5 i love luo zhi xiang alot and no one can change tht. (:
#6 i think tht lollipop and choc7 are th cutest bands.
#7 i love all my gans, esp those whom i'm very close with.
#8 math is nvr one of my stronger subjects. but at least i can still teach joyce. :p
#9 i like disiaoing ppl whom i knw will nvr get angry.
#10 i like hearing i love you from my gans. (:
#11 i am a very random person. ^^
#12 currently ultra in love with gevin 鮪魚 吴俊諺 :D
#13 because of #12, i'm loving popping also. weeee~
wanted :D
#1 罗志祥's 潮男正传 album
#2 飞轮海's 越来越爱 album
#3 棒棒堂's 《黑糖群侠传》电视原声带
#4 choc7's 太青春 mini album
#5 [STAGE] t-shirts/hoodies
#6 [STAGE] caps
#7 [STAGE] jeans
#8 be with my gans forever
#9 K.O.3anguo
#10 ppl ard me to smile forever
#11 to trust among friends
#12 people to rmb my birthday!!
#13 12am birthday wishes from my gans <3
#14 to be loved
#15 start passing a.math
#16 push english back to th A grade.
#17 there's this bag i'm loving alot now. its white~
last updated: 12 october 2009